Prayer About Prayer

Lord, when I sinned against you, guilt prevents me from seeking you.
Preoccupied, busy and feel tired,
I have no urge to plunge into your comfort ride.
I just need a rest, so I thought it’s best.

Why would I indulge in prayer like Jesus did?
Why would I pray if someone is praying for me,
my mother certainly?
Why would I pray for somebody if someone is praying for him,
our pastor be?

I cannot pray for it is not my gift
and the environment doesn’t fit.
Everything goes well so far
And if it is not God’s desire,
it won’t go this far.

O God, You know my entire being;
my desires, my thoughts, my feeling,
O man, flatter your mind with reasons in vain!

Lord, forgive me if this is a sin of abomination.
Let your grace remain in me
that I may be useful for your glory.
Delight in my prayer, my God and comforter.